Thank you for writing this. I identify partially, agree completely, and am sorry for all the crap people have pulled/are continuing to pull.
Your experiences sound very painful, but I am really glad you're in fandom, even if what drove you here was awful things in RL. Wish you all the best in dealing with that legacy, and am feeling very grateful that my stuff was better and that I have family and friends who do believe me.
Might be less coherent than intended. Just had a bad day with a PT person who seemed to view me as neurotic because the stuff we were doing (well within an able-bodied but out-of-shape person's abilities) made me very anxious that I would be in a lot of pain in the next few days and trigger a flare-up. Am indeed in much pain and feeling hurt/angry that fearing very real pain and illness (and being nonfunctional for x days of my life, during which i may have had things to do) makes me a flake who needs to be pushed thru things instead of heard and respected.
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Date: 2012-06-21 03:47 pm (UTC)Your experiences sound very painful, but I am really glad you're in fandom, even if what drove you here was awful things in RL. Wish you all the best in dealing with that legacy, and am feeling very grateful that my stuff was better and that I have family and friends who do believe me.
Might be less coherent than intended. Just had a bad day with a PT person who seemed to view me as neurotic because the stuff we were doing (well within an able-bodied but out-of-shape person's abilities) made me very anxious that I would be in a lot of pain in the next few days and trigger a flare-up. Am indeed in much pain and feeling hurt/angry that fearing very real pain and illness (and being nonfunctional for x days of my life, during which i may have had things to do) makes me a flake who needs to be pushed thru things instead of heard and respected.
PS your new mask is pretty :)