attackfish

Looking up cPTSD on google, it looks pretty close to what I have. the trust issues, the issues I have with depression and suicidal ideation, that waiting for the other shoe to fall when someone is nice to me, my fear of becoming close to someone, the sense of hopelessness, of being trapped this way, my inability to express anger, and then when I do, it's fast, hot, and leaves me panicked afterwards, (my difficulty trusting my perfectly wonderful therapist) that, along with more typical PTSD symptoms is me, and closer to what I was getting at with Zuko, Mai, and Ty Lee. The person traumatizing you doesn't have to be a parent or caregiver. It can be a little sister or a "best friend."