And then there are those days when I know I'm about to fall apart, and someone tells me I'm strong, and I'm like "YOU POOR DELUDED FOOL, I AM A WORTHLESS PATHETIC WORM!!!!" but I have a reputation to maintain, so I smile, and fake it, and get out of there as fast as possible so I can go hide under the covers.
That's one of the hardest things, there is no prize at the end. There isn't any point at which you're done healing, and things are back to the way they were before. You got to just keep slogging through in spite of knowing that.
*hugs* One of the only things that got me through it was that I had an incredibly supportive family that fought tooth and nail for me. I'm sorry. Knowing they didn't mean to hurt you doesn't really make it better.
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Date: 2013-10-05 03:05 am (UTC)That's one of the hardest things, there is no prize at the end. There isn't any point at which you're done healing, and things are back to the way they were before. You got to just keep slogging through in spite of knowing that.
*hugs* One of the only things that got me through it was that I had an incredibly supportive family that fought tooth and nail for me. I'm sorry. Knowing they didn't mean to hurt you doesn't really make it better.