*nods* re: splitting. The executive dysfunction is usually horrible and awful and well essentially like my brain is switched into procrastination mode for everything 24/7, so even things like eating or going to bed on time or getting up to make myself a cup of tea become a battle against inertia. This is the #1 candidate for ruining my life or (highly unlikely but possible) killing me via me accidentally starving to death. At the same time, I don't know if you can separate it from my personality, suspect not... so even if a cure existed I probably wouldn't take it because I just wouldn't know.
And that is absolutely fascinating, re: your experience with seizure halos! It's actually really good to hear, because much as I think autism forms a fundamental part of my personality I don't know because I've never not been autistic. I just think so because the symptoms of autism feel as if they're natural outgrowths of the way I think, feel, process the world, etc. and that changing my brain in such a way as to get rid of them would essentially turn me into someone else. Not all autistic people think this way (although many do) and I've been accused of saying there's nothing more to an autistic person than the autism (not true, just as little as being NT determines your personality) so it's really interesting to have something like independent confirmation.
...although not interesting in the "must put you into a tube and study you now" sense, many sympathies. :/
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Date: 2010-06-20 08:01 pm (UTC)And that is absolutely fascinating, re: your experience with seizure halos! It's actually really good to hear, because much as I think autism forms a fundamental part of my personality I don't know because I've never not been autistic. I just think so because the symptoms of autism feel as if they're natural outgrowths of the way I think, feel, process the world, etc. and that changing my brain in such a way as to get rid of them would essentially turn me into someone else. Not all autistic people think this way (although many do) and I've been accused of saying there's nothing more to an autistic person than the autism (not true, just as little as being NT determines your personality) so it's really interesting to have something like independent confirmation.
...although not interesting in the "must put you into a tube and study you now" sense, many sympathies. :/