Sounds a lot like what depression does to me when I don't treat it, only I assume you don't want to take a header out the upstairs window. Fortunately I had my dogs and birds, so I knew I had to drag myself out of my room to take care of them.
The reason they scare me so much and the reason I work so hard to avoid them is that they're like someone else getting control of my body and kicking me out. No, autism and other forms of neurological differences aren't all there is of a person who has them, but the way your brain works is a huge part of your essential self!
Given that I spent my childhood almost constantly seizing, you could see me not seizing as the interloper.
So aside from the fact that were docs going to study me (which isn't fun by itself, you ever been studied? It sucks) They'd have to trigger seizures over and over again, I'd also be formally diagnosed with seizures. As it is, I'm diagnosed with "seizure-like symptoms" with a sly wink from the docs. That that diagnosis means is I have seizures, but because my halos are so long, I'm safe to drive. My doc knows if she says "seizure", I lose my driver's license, and I think a few other privileges.
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Date: 2010-06-21 05:52 am (UTC)The reason they scare me so much and the reason I work so hard to avoid them is that they're like someone else getting control of my body and kicking me out. No, autism and other forms of neurological differences aren't all there is of a person who has them, but the way your brain works is a huge part of your essential self!
Given that I spent my childhood almost constantly seizing, you could see me not seizing as the interloper.
So aside from the fact that were docs going to study me (which isn't fun by itself, you ever been studied? It sucks) They'd have to trigger seizures over and over again, I'd also be formally diagnosed with seizures. As it is, I'm diagnosed with "seizure-like symptoms" with a sly wink from the docs. That that diagnosis means is I have seizures, but because my halos are so long, I'm safe to drive. My doc knows if she says "seizure", I lose my driver's license, and I think a few other privileges.