The Blue Spirit Redux- the reason all the Air Monks have no hair: they had to teach Zuko.
Above It All- And yet, at least for me and my disability, I have to keep it on my mind all the time. It's the constant back-of-the-mind compensation for it that makes everybody else able to forget it. And when that compensation fails...
The Shadow Falls and With Her- My best friend growing up was a sociopath who desperately craved control. After I finally realized what she was and tried to get away, she stalked me for four years. She played her sister, brother, and me against each other to maintain her hold and keep us from overthrowing her, all the while remaining the favorite of her at the least emotionally abusive father and sweet but deeply in denial mother. She had all of our secrets, and some days, she would be nice, and we'd delude ourselves into thinking that was the real her. I sunk into a deep depression and contemplated suicide over and over again. I managed (that time) to pull myself out of it after I moved and the stalking let up, but I succumbed to it again in collage. Everybody offline who I tell that to tells me that I always seem so happy and they never noticed, even my parents. Given that I played Ty Lee to someone else's Azula, I always wondered how much that relentlessly cheery exterior wasn't a survival mechanism for dealing with her family, but one for dealing with Azula.
Hands and Feet- This was just going to be fluff, and then... Oops.
Humming- Hue is the "time is an illusion and so is death" guy from the swamp. She talks about him a bit in "The Puppetmaster" and mentions his swinging vines in conjunction with what Hama was teaching her. I think maybe this wouldn't be something she'd feel comfortable discussing with somebody back home, or with Pakku, so she goes to someone whose waterbending is similar but less horrifying.
Pieces- I mostly just wanted to show Iroh being kind and loving without being trusting or thinking she's a good person, and Azula slowly gaining her self-awareness back. I was also trying to show that the psychosis didn't negate the sociopathy, and that the sociopathy didn't negate the psin and fear the psychosis caused her. And that no matter how much she recovered, she wouldn't stop being a sociopath. I'm not sure how well I did with the last set of things. It was mostly just meant to be an impression.
She Bends and Left- I love femslash and wish there were so much more of it in fandom, yet I can't stand the primary femslash ship of this fandom. Honestly, given the heavy romantic overtones of my friendship with little miss sociopath, and the fact that we're neither of us straight, I always suspected that had we been any older when I broke away, there would have been a sexual relationship between us. This is why I have never been able to ship Tyzula. It hits a bit close to home. Plus, a lot of the Tyzula fics downplay Azula's cruelty and need to control.
Stop Spinning- Mai/Zuko is my favorite ship in this fandom, and I think part of the foundation of their relationship is a sort of survivors' understanding. I like the fact that they're both deeply damaged and they're going to heal together instead of the show trying to set them up with emotionally clean people who would by sheer force of love heal them.
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Date: 2011-04-18 02:58 pm (UTC)Above It All- And yet, at least for me and my disability, I have to keep it on my mind all the time. It's the constant back-of-the-mind compensation for it that makes everybody else able to forget it. And when that compensation fails...
The Shadow Falls and With Her- My best friend growing up was a sociopath who desperately craved control. After I finally realized what she was and tried to get away, she stalked me for four years. She played her sister, brother, and me against each other to maintain her hold and keep us from overthrowing her, all the while remaining the favorite of her at the least emotionally abusive father and sweet but deeply in denial mother. She had all of our secrets, and some days, she would be nice, and we'd delude ourselves into thinking that was the real her. I sunk into a deep depression and contemplated suicide over and over again. I managed (that time) to pull myself out of it after I moved and the stalking let up, but I succumbed to it again in collage. Everybody offline who I tell that to tells me that I always seem so happy and they never noticed, even my parents. Given that I played Ty Lee to someone else's Azula, I always wondered how much that relentlessly cheery exterior wasn't a survival mechanism for dealing with her family, but one for dealing with Azula.
Hands and Feet- This was just going to be fluff, and then... Oops.
Humming- Hue is the "time is an illusion and so is death" guy from the swamp. She talks about him a bit in "The Puppetmaster" and mentions his swinging vines in conjunction with what Hama was teaching her. I think maybe this wouldn't be something she'd feel comfortable discussing with somebody back home, or with Pakku, so she goes to someone whose waterbending is similar but less horrifying.
Pieces- I mostly just wanted to show Iroh being kind and loving without being trusting or thinking she's a good person, and Azula slowly gaining her self-awareness back. I was also trying to show that the psychosis didn't negate the sociopathy, and that the sociopathy didn't negate the psin and fear the psychosis caused her. And that no matter how much she recovered, she wouldn't stop being a sociopath. I'm not sure how well I did with the last set of things. It was mostly just meant to be an impression.
She Bends and Left- I love femslash and wish there were so much more of it in fandom, yet I can't stand the primary femslash ship of this fandom. Honestly, given the heavy romantic overtones of my friendship with little miss sociopath, and the fact that we're neither of us straight, I always suspected that had we been any older when I broke away, there would have been a sexual relationship between us. This is why I have never been able to ship Tyzula. It hits a bit close to home. Plus, a lot of the Tyzula fics downplay Azula's cruelty and need to control.
Stop Spinning- Mai/Zuko is my favorite ship in this fandom, and I think part of the foundation of their relationship is a sort of survivors' understanding. I like the fact that they're both deeply damaged and they're going to heal together instead of the show trying to set them up with emotionally clean people who would by sheer force of love heal them.